Pondering On...... Luke 9:23

{photo from Year 27}

Luke 9: 23

"If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me."

I am in the midst of reading "not a fan" by Kyle Idleman.

Maybe you've already read it.

It has been out for a while, but I'm just getting around to it.

I'm about halfway through the book.

In the first section, he talked about the difference between being a fan of Jesus and being a follower.

There are days when I'd say I am more of a fan than a true follower.

How do I know?

Because there are days when I'm simply not willing to give everything up for God.

See -as Kyle says

"Anyone can follow, but not without giving up everything."

There are days when I want to be in charge.

Of me

my kids

the church

my husband

other people

There are days when I don't want to let go of my hurts

or my anger or my bitterness.

But then, that makes me a fan.

And it also makes me very 'fake'.

And being  a fan and a fake are two things I do not want to be.

More than anything, I want to be a follower of the Way 

and in doing so be completely authentic.

This is what I'm thinking and pondering on

and praying over

tonight.