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Saturday, May 31, 2014

Moments {Two Weeks Worth 5.30.14}

It's been two weeks since I've shared pics.
And due to the unexpected events of the last two weeks, I ended up not getting one with my actual camera each day.  oh well......
Here are loads of pics sharing what we have been up to for the last two weeks!

Saturday, May 17, 2014 -- Our church gathered with some other local churches to pack meals for Stop Hunger Now. 

136/365......it was loads of fun and we packed over 20,000 meals!

We spent the rest of Saturday at ballgames and getting ready for the next day.
Though, I will say that it was on this day that I noticed for the first time that my Allie has lost a lot of weight.  

Sunday, May 18, 2014 -- We had church and youth. Then we took our 5th and 6th grade group - The Bridge -- to a fun place called Sky High.  It is a place where the walls and floors are trampolines.  This girl wasn't feeling well at all.  But I did get her to snap a picture with me.
This shot now haunts me as I knew she didn't look well and that she wasn't feeling well.
I just didn't know it was so serious at the time.

137/365......the whole gang at Sky High.......


Monday, May 19, 2014 --  On this day, I got up with the intention of running and then getting some work done before Allie's doctor appointment at 1:40PM , as she had started throwing up the night before and I was certain she had strep throat.  And, I wanted to  talk about the weight she had lost so I called the doctor first thing in the morning.
I did all of those things and got Allie to her doctor appointment.
Not knowing we would end up in the ER of the local hospital.....
(The next several shots of from my iPhone as i didn't have my camera with me)

138/365......one sick girl.  Diabetic Ketoacidosis.

We eventually got transferred to the Peds ICU at a children's hospital about an hour from home.

Tuesday, May 20, 2014 -- Allie had to be out of Ketoacidosis before they would let her eat.
Thankfully, around lunch time, there were no ketones in her urine and she could eat.

139/365.......eating made her feel good enough to take a good long nap.

Wednesday, May 21, 2014 -- Allie's diagnosis is Type 1 Diabetes.
SO, on Wednesday , we continued our training on how to handle this disease.
I was so proud of this brave girl for giving herself a shot with out even flinching!

She had loads more visitors (which I plan to share on in the next day or two)

140/365......and even smiled for the first time in weeks.....

Thursday, May 22, 2014 -- Daddy brought the rest of the little people to visit their sister, and we had a special visit from our favorite clown.

141/365..... my loves.....


We also got to go home late that afternoon.
HOORAY!!!


Friday, May 23, 2014 --  I spent Friday doing a little work and then took Allie to visit the school.
And then, it was softball time.
My softball girl 

142/365......a different kind of  school supplies stacked up ready to go.



May 24, 2014 -- Early Saturday morning, we got up and drove all the way to Georgia for my uncle's memorial service.  
It was a long day after a longer week, but I am glad I could be there to celebrate the life of one of my favorite people.
My camera said the card was full (rats!) so there were no photos take with my camera Saturday or Sunday. 
143/365...... my mom's gorgeous peonies......

After the memorial, we visited with Grammy and Granddaddy, my sisters family and Papa and Nana.
It was a nice visit.

Sunday, May 25, 2014 --- We attended church with my dad and then went to visit my grandparents before heading back home later that afternoon.
The kids were playing outside at my Granny's house and were way down in the garden when it came a downpour.

143/365.......just a little bit wet.

Much to my kids chagrin, we then drove all the way back home on Sunday afternoon.
I just needed a whole day to rest and do some laundry on Monday since it was a holiday and there was no school.

Monday, May 26, 2014 ---- After breakfast on Monday, we decided to get some exercise as a family.
Ken and I ran while the kids rode their bikes.

I then spent the rest of the day planning our meal for the week and getting completely overwhelmed with our new situation.

144/365 ......after the afternoon storm.  I love it when God shows me a rainbow.
It reminds me of his promises.  He remembered Noah. He remembers me!

Tuesday, May 27, 2014 --- I took Allie and all her new 'stuff' to school.
She had a good day at school and came home to about 6 cards in the mail.
She was so thankful to get them.

145/365...... And I am thankful to see her smile more these days.

our new schedule.  

Wednesday, May 28, 2014 ---  This day was Brady's last day of preschool ever.
To commemorate, he painted a rock.
He painted a jack-o-lantern.

146/365.....preschool is done!

Thursday, May 29, 2014 --  I was having another hard morning.  Feeling overwhelmed and having a bit of a pity party.  I got some perspective from some amazing ladies and a reminder from one of my girls who put this on our fridge.....
I found out later it was Maggie.


And later that night, my sweet boy graduated from preschool.

147/365......I cannot take it.

Friday, May 30, 2014 -  We started this day at the Character Kid Awards at school.
Allie was given the award for having the ability to synergize.  
It was also another diabetes first for us, as we found out how high being nervous makes Allie's blood sugar go......turns out that for this morning anyway, that number was 374. =/  
I think that situation probably made my own blood sugar -- and blood pressure go up. 
We did finally get her sugar to go down after a few hours and a couple of phone calls back and forth to the doctor and the school.

148/365......proud of my character kid.


 After the awards breakfast, I went on a day after graduation field trip with Brady to the Lazy 5 Ranch. And then worked for quite a while.  
Came home to find that our church had sent Allie flowers.  So kind.
I know she was so blessed by them. 

I started this post on Friday and am finally finishing it late Saturday night.
Life is just going so fast. And I am working to actually enjoy it. Especially as my family is learning a new normal that is taking up some time and a whole lot of extra planning.

Hope y'all have had a great couple of weeks!
I'm linking up at


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and


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Thursday, May 29, 2014

My Littlest Graduate


It is hard to believe.


He graduated from Preschool tonight. 


My littlest little will be going to Kindergarten in the fall.
They lined up and marched in to Pomp and Circumstance.


They played bells and sang to us.
It was oh, so sweet.


Then they announced his name.
He said he wanted to be a baseball player when he grows up.


He then walked to 'his spot' after receiving his diploma and a bible that he is quite proud of.

Making faces at his sister when she was taking his picture.

He is still so small......

but is growing so fast.

 Grandpap and Nana came to join us tonight.

So thankful they could come!

Brady and his buddy, Joseph

It was a bittersweet evening. I cried my way through the video presentation.
I cannot believe this time has come.
Time flies by all too quickly!

OH, the places you'll go.
Kid, You'll Move Mountains!  

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Overwhelmed

I was going to share the rest of our story from last week.  That was what my plan was for tonight.  And I will get back to that in case one day someone wants to read the whole story about how and when we found out about Allie's Type 1 Diabetes. (Part 1 is here)  I say someone because I doubt I will ever forget.......

The moment I realized how very sick she really was.

The first time I heard the word Ketoacidosis.

The diagnosis.

The week in the hospital.

The first time I sent her down to sleep in her room once we were home from the hospital and there was no one there to watch her. I still worry each night.

The midnight and 3AM blood sugar checks that are reminiscent of having a newborn baby.  Even though my husband has been doing these checks (as he is a night owl and is usually still awake at midnight and he graciously gets up to do the 3AM ones) I still wake up every time. To hear what the number was and to be sure she doesn't need me. Fearing that it is going to be too high or too low.......

This past weekend when we went on our first weekend away and I had to make sure that I remembered it all.  That I packed and took with us everything we needed to have with us to keep my daughter safe and healthy.

The three hours (yes, three) that I spent searching for recipes and making a menu for this weeks suppers.  It was only 5 supper meals (along with breakfasts and lunches) for Pete's sake. I'm so not sure it should have taken me that long. But it did.

The moments after I made the menu when my husband was simply trying to ask a question and I fussed at him for quite a while about how I think things should go and how it needs to be this way and how I couldn't believe it took me three hours to make a menu.

 And then Allie said "I'm sorry Mom that this is so hard for you."

I said, "Honey, it's not your fault".

She said "I feel like it is."

That stab in the heart moment where I couldn't believe I had just done that . That she had just heard all of that and was now feeling that it was her fault.

I tried desperately to reassure her that none of this is her fault.

The moments since that I have prayed that she believes me when I say it isn't her fault.

The moment today when I dropped her off at school for the first time in a week and left her to do it all for herself.  (Thankfully, she has an amazing school nurse who over saw it all and I didn't need to worry about that at all.  Thank you Mrs. Spaulding for calling me to give me an update after lunch today -- it helped so much).

The time that I spend 'in my head'.  Worrying, thinking, reading, worrying some more. And thinking how 'unfair' this is that my sweets loving girl now has to count the carbs of every.single. little. thing she eats.  That our lives are changing a lot and that I feel somewhat ruled by 'the numbers'.  Then the guilt I feel for thinking this is unfair when I know things could be so much worse than they are.

All the counting. All the counting and looking things up.

All of these things lead up to one very tired and overwhelmed Mama.
So, I will post about the rest of our hospital stay and the amazing people who came to visit us there and who have sent the sweetest cards.  But, tonight --
I think I'm just going to head to bed.

To do some praying and reading and sleeping.

Until Midnight. When I will be up.  And again at 3AM.

Because. The Numbers.


Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Thankful for Strep Throat?

Wow.  As I sit here tonight, I don't even know how to start this post.  A week ago on Wednesday, Allie was feeling unwell.  She was very upset and had a headache and a stomachache before school.  I convinced her that since she didn't have a fever she needed to try to go to school.
She agreed to go and give it a shot.  She felt so badly, though, that she was home by 10AM.  She spent the afternoon lying on the couch feeling poorly but seemed better by evening.  She felt alright all of Thursday and Friday.  On Saturday, I noticed that  her face looked thin and she was pretty emotional. Sunday she was very not feeling well again.  Her head and her stomach again.  Sunday night she threw up a couple of times.  I don't know how you know that your kids have strep throat, but in my house -- when they complain of stomachache and headache, I think strep!
So, yesterday morning, I called and made an appointment to get her in to see her doctor.  I told Ken that while we were there I was going to mention to the doctor that Allie seemed to have lost some weight along with the fact that Allie was having trouble sleeping at night.

We arrived at the doctor's office at about 1:40PM.  I shared my list of symptoms with the nurse, who mentioned a stomach bug.  I told her that I wanted Allie to be tested for strep so before she left the room, she went ahead and did the swab.

The doctor came in shortly and I shared with her my list again.  I even pulled up a picture of Allie from when we were in Georgia after Easter.

And it was in that moment that things began to get concerning.  The doctor recommended doing blood tests, a urinalysis and a finger prick.  As she left the room, the nurse told us that the strep was positive.  The doctor turned around and shared this news with me but said that isn't all that is going on here. That weight loss is concerning.  Allie has lost about 10 lbs since we left my mother's house at the end of Spring Break.  

In a few short minutes, I was ushered into a different room, where the doctor asked if there was anyone I could call to be with me during this time.  I started to panic even more.  I had already been praying all the way to the doctors office because I knew there was something going on with her.  I was praying that God would be with her and let her be okay since the day before when I realized that my daughter now looked like skin and bones.  

The doctor told me that Allie's blood sugar was really high and we needed to go directly to the ER. That she was not stable and was very sick. She had called them and they were expecting us.  I got in my car and drove to the ER, praying as I went.  Allie was so sick. Her condition had deteriorated rapidly.  She was very agitated, lethargic, breathing hard, slurring her words and could barely stand much less walk.  

In the ER of the local hospital was the first time I heard the words Ketoacidosis.  That is what was wrong with my girl.  She was in Ketoacidosis and her blood sugar was up over 700.  My husband finally made it to the ER to meet us and spent some time in that room getting more stable before they transferred us to the pediatric ICU in a children's hospital about an hour from home for to be treated for this and to get things where they should be. They told us that Allie probably had type 1 diabetes.


We spent the night with an insulin drip, fluids and antibiotics for the strep throat.  I learned that when you go into Ketoacidosis, your body throws a lot of things out a whack.  Your blood sugar being way too high is what causes it, but then several other things get out of whack due to it.  It took until lunch time today, but they finally got Allie's ketoacidosis under control.   
We also saw the endocrinologist who gave us some more information and was the 4th person (at least) to answer the question I had. "Are you sure it is type 1 diabetes?"  She explained that she has no doubt.  Allie's HCN-1 (I think?) level was 11.8 and it should have been at about 6 and that was an indicator.  With that and all the other 'classic' symptoms Allie has been having -- weight loss, getting up to go to the bathroom at night, less hungry than usual (due to the food not breaking down in her stomach and her feeling nauseous), and the ketoacidosis -- she has no doubt. 

This morning was spent working to get Allie completely stable. She began to get hungry and had a hard morning because she couldn't eat until her 'bi-carb' level was back up to where it needed to be.  Our friend, Dawn, came and visited which put a little smile on Allie's face. The first one I've seen in a while.  Her Nana and Grandpap also came to see her.  

She was so very happy when she finally got to eat some lunch this afternoon.





Once she finally got to eat, she was comfortable enough to take a good nap.



We've  all (Allie, her Dad , and I) spent the day learning about Type 1 Diabetes.  It has been a pretty overwhelming day for Allie and for me too if I'm honest. She will have to take insulin injections for the rest of her life.  It was explained to us that Type 1 Diabetes is an autoimmune disorder and that something, probably a virus at some point, made her body think that the insulin producing cells in her pancreas were an infection.  So,  her body attacked and her now can no longer produce insulin.  I even had to give my girl a shot of insulin tonight.  ME!!! If you know me and my fear of needles --- that is HUGE.

Tonight Allie had more visitors. Some of her sweet friends from school came to see her.  


Thank you so much girls for coming to see Allie. I know she didn't talk much but please know, she appreciated seeing you all!

To say that when I look back over the last 30+ hours, and even the days leading up those hours seem very surreal.  

I prayed that God would take care of my girl.  I prayed that she would be alright.  He has done both of those things.  While I probably would have taken Allie to the doctor for the weight loss, I possibly wouldn't have insisted it be yesterday if not for the throwing up and strep throat.  She and we have a LOT of learning to do.  Life style changes are coming for our whole family but especially my sugar loving Allie  -- who can no longer have any sugar.  We will learn to count carbs, take blood sugar readings, and give insulin shots. We will learn what to do when Allie's sugar is high (as it still is tonight - 298 at last check) and what to do when it is low.  

I sit here and wonder how we got here.  I am worried about my girl. About the 10 lbs that she's lost and will need to regain. About new ways of life.  Will she take this seriously? Will she understand the significance of taking care of her self, exercising and eating correctly? I sit here and thank God that I didn't realize the seriousness of ketoacidosis as we were in the think of it. And that I didn't have time to google it.  I am praying and working trust God in all this. TO know that HE is God and that HE is taking care of us all......especially Allie.

I sit here tonight being thankful. Thankful that HE is with me and my girl. Thankful that he is always with me.  And thankful for strep throat. The reason we went to the doctor in the first place yesterday. In order, that we could find out about this before things got any worse.

I ask that you will pray for my whole family in the days to come. As I said, things are going to change for us!!  Especially pray for Allie. She won't let on, but I know this is very overwhelming for her! 

We will likely be in the hospital for the rest of the week balancing blood sugars and learning.  
Thank you to everyone who continues to check on Allie throughout the day.  I'm sorry if I didn't write you back.  Please know it wasn't intentional.....It was a very busy day and many more to come.  We love you all and covet your prayers! 

Saturday, May 17, 2014

Moments {5,16,14}

 The moments of our last week.
As I sit here at almost midnight on Friday night, I think back on this week.
It's been another busy one and I am looking forward to summer coming.
I'm hoping that when school is over, that we will have a little more downtime!

Saturday, May 10, 2014 -- Another Saturday that began with t-ball and softball.
We then went to see my in-law's new home and to celebrate Mother's Day with them.
We ate supper at this little bbq joint.  
The food was very good.
And there was a pig that the kids could ride next to our booth.
Three of my kids rode it for only $25 a piece.
Kid #4 was thoroughly embarrassed that her siblings thought riding the pig.

the day ended with a Lego explosion.

129/365......and for these few minutes there were all getting along.
Sibling Harmony......


Sunday, May 11, 2014 --
I didn't actually take this picture.
One of the kiddo's commandeered my phone on Sunday morning to take this picture.
I did instagram it.
I love this picture.
My oldest and our cat, Snow.

We had a pretty low key Mother's Day.
The kids had all made me cards and some sweet things at school.
And hubs gave me a card with the promise of a weekend away at a B&B in the near future.

130/365.....sweetness.

Monday, May 12, 2014 --  Monday. Monday.
It was a long day which included my spending my afternoon at church separating food for the local Food pantry.  It was a great way to spend the afternoon, but tiring for sure.
By the time I got home, I was so tired.
But starving, so I hopped back in the car to run grab some food.
Loved the moon over the tree and the church as I drove out of my driveway.
Twilight is my favorite time of day.....