It's no secret that I have trust issues....I've shared that before. Sometimes, my trust issues spill over and cause me to question what I know to be true about God. Sometimes, my trust issues cause me to question God's love for me. I don't want to be that way!
I want to know God loves me and I want to be so crazy in love with Him that it makes me different in a way that draws other people to Him! I want to be authentically in love with my Lord. Jesus said that we should “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself. (Matthew 22:37-39)
In his book, Chan poses these very convicting questions: "Do you believe that God is the greatest thing you can experience in the whole world? Do you believe that the Good News is not merely the forgiveness of your sins, the guarantee that you won't go to hell, or the promise of life in heaven"
The easy thing to say is "yes" -- I do believe that.
But see, I think that it has to be more than that. I have to do more than say the right words. I have to live it. I want to love God so much that it's in very marrow of my bones. I want to love him so much that I can't help but show him in everything I do!
I know God is working in me tonight because when I was working on my study for tonight, I heard a song by Sidewalk Prophets called "You Can Have Me". After reading this chapter and feeling this need to love Him more, the words of this song have been going through my head over and over....
"When did Love become unmoving?
When did Love become unconsuming?
Forgetting what the world has told me
Father of Love, You can have me!
My prayer tonight --
Dear Lord, Please give me a heart that loves YOU more!! I want to be moved and I want to be consumed by YOU -- Father, You can have me!