Thursday, March 19, 2009

Thursday Thoughts

I have a post that I am rolling around in my head but I don't have the time or energy this morning to put into it in order that it will be cohesive.....This will be anything, hang on as to keep from getting whiplash from all the randomness.

* We've been fever free at my house since Saturday (PRAISE!!).....but we still have some 'wellness' issues. I made my 5th trip to the doctor on Monday (in a week) because A had been breaking out in hives everyday for 5 days.....they think it is a reaction to the Amoxi*cillin she was taking. We have allergy medicine now and are hoping it clears up this week. Otherwise it will be on to the allergist. B has had a really runny nose since the virus he had last week..... which now is accompanied with a yucky cough. I 'm not sure if he is just getting a cold or what is going on....He didn't sleep well last night (it's hard to sleep when you can't breath) and his cough sounds pretty bad..... Please pray it doesn't become a wheezy cough -- because then I'd have to go back to the doctor. I might as well move in.

* Another praise -- night before last, B slept in his bed ALL NIGHT for the first time!!!!! =)

* I think I told ya'll that I'm doing a parenting study at church. It is called "Don't Make Me Count To Three" and it's by this great lady. It is a great study but I have to tell ya'll. The devil, he doesn't want me to be a better Mom. Behavior issues are rampant and things have been difficult. Of course, maybe it isn't the devil....Maybe God is giving me an opportunity to live what I'm teaching to these ladies (and myself- goodness knows I'm preaching to myself as much as anyone). This book is challenging me in so many ways. Disciplining my kids in a biblical way is HARD and I fail much more often that I get it right. I'm very aware of that right now.

* Remember I told you that God challenged me to do this? Well....that isn't going so well, either. I got to Day 6.....That's it. And really, I should be almost through the book if I did it the way it was to be done but there are many reasons why I'm not there. Sick kids.....days where my humanness gets in the way and I just don't want to be loving to my husband....and busyness....Lots of excuses.....lots of failure in this area, too. Again, I'm very aware of this.

*I guess you could say I'm having a pity party today in some ways.....I'm tired..... Tired from a lack of sleep, 4 kids, and life that seems to be going so fast that I don't have time to stop and see and enjoy it.....Tired of failing.

I'm trying to praise HIM through it though.....I've got my music going and I will be waiting to hear from HIM on these things today. Will ya'll say a prayer for me today that as I go through this very busy day with all these things swimming in my head that HE will break though and speak his truth to me in it all?

Thanks ya'll.


Christi said...

Goodness! You have been having a hard time haven't you?! I'm just now catching up with everything but you have had sick kids on top of it! I'm glad to hear they are getting a little better.

Kayla used to break out in a rash when she took penicillan (I never spell that right) so she has to take the generic form now. I tell ya, I miss my babies but I do not miss all the sickness.

I'm so proud of you for doing these studies at your church!! I just don't know that I could ever do it. I can't talk right when people are staring at me. You'll have to let me know if it gets any easier.

And don't get discouraged about your reading. It happens to all of us. I'm doing a Bible study now and the first meeting is tonight and I am 3 days behind in my book work so guess who will be speed reading in a little while? lol I hate doing that because it defeats the purpose. As long as you are reading at your own pace and not stressing yourself out over it you will be able to retain what you do get to read and learn more. Wasn't that your intention to begin with? That book isn't going anywhere. :)

elaine @ peace for the journey said...

There is some huge and widespread virus going around over in our neck of the woods. So many sick in our church. We've all missed it. I'm so sorry for all you're having to walk through right now. I know it's hard. I remember some awful days/nights with my little ones. As they grow, it gets better, I promise. When they can manage their pain/yuck a bit, it helps. You make sure and keep yourself well armored with Vitamin C and all the rest. I've got some great stuff I use from the health food store if you're interested.

You were just on my mind today while out running, and I wanted to stop by and say hi. I think we're safe here for another year. I don't sense any "movement" from our DS or Bishop at this point. We're finishing 5 years which is kind of unheard of with the UM church.

I'm open to whatever at this point. It's God's way of getting me ready...when I feel OK about letting go and moving on, it usually means He's up to something along those lines. We'll see.

Take good care, Mindy.


Stephanie said...

I'm sorry that you are feeling tired and worn out! I am right there with you. (Had a rough week too! Nothing really has happened. Just life is a little overwhelming sometimes.)

But I'm glad you got a good night of sleep last night.

Don't feel bad about the book. My husband and I started it too, and we are still on day 12, I think for like 2 months....

Anyway, know that it is ok if you aren't doing everything "perfect", just be the best mommy and wife that you can be, and I know that they (and God) will love you for who you are.

(Maybe I need to listen to my own advice....)

Deidre said...

You have certainly been through a lot lately and shouldn't be so hard on yourself. Mothering is HARD and with sick children, the burden is greater. Hold on, dear friend! This too shall pass!

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