First, I'd like to say thank you to all you ladies who said such nice things about my pregnant self.
I don't usually like to put pictures of myself on here but you all have just about made me feel quite good about my waddling self.
THANKS for all the encouragement!!
Now, to finish up my thoughts from yesterday and to ask for ya'll's help with something.
I've been a part of many of Beth Moore's bible studies over the past several years. And all of them have taught me so much. There are two, however, that I can say without a doubt that really have changed me and my thinking about a lot of things. These are Breaking Free and Believing God. In Breaking Free, there is a whole week about how we are to change our thoughts so that they are God's thoughts. The basic concept is this.
There is a battle raging in our minds. The battle is over our thoughts. Satan likes to slip all sorts of "bad" thinking into our minds. And, in my opinion, when Satan isn't trying to get me down with the thoughts he puts in my mind, I feel like I, in my sinful nature, do a pretty good job of getting my own self down. The way to combat this kind of thinking, I learned, is to know God's word and to replace those wrong thoughts with God's thoughts.
In order to replace those thoughts, though, we have to KNOW God's word.
I've been working at this for a long time now. I've had my "Truth Cards" for different things for a long time. Beth suggests that when you are struggling with a certain issue --take my latest issue of fear-- then you should look up every reference to that subject in the bible. Then write all of the verses on notecards and carry them with you everywhere. This helps you to replace your wrong thinking immediately by replacing wrong thoughts with God thoughts. Also, though. It should help me memorize and be able to recall more of God's word without having to have the bible in my hand to look it up or a card to read. This is the part I struggle with....the memorization.
Here is my request for you all. It is threefold.
First, since my big issue right now is a huge fear of dying, I'm asking for your all to send me verses that I can put on my truth cards. My intention is to write them all down on a new set of cards dedicated completely to this issue, to read them every time the fear creeps in. This is going to be especially true while I am waiting to go into labor and when I am in labor. Because the devil keeps trying to convince me that I am going to die in/ around childbirth this time.
Hubs has agreed that if I need him to while we are at the hospital, he will read my cards to me so I can work at replacing my wrong thoughts.
Second, what tips do you have for memorizing God's word? I have a few things that I do that seem to help some but I'm up for new suggestions. At 34, I seem to have lost the ability to remember things.....and I just hate that!
Third, please do pray for me in the next few weeks. Pray specifically, that God will take away this fear of death and heal my unbelief and lack of trust. I've been fighting this battle for the past two and a half years and quite frankly, I'm weary from the battle.
While I don't believe that this battle is from God, I do think that he is using it to teach me to trust and believe fully. Pray that I will learn the lesson quickly.
And lastly, please pray for my upcoming labor and delivery. For a healthy mom and baby. There is still a little anxiety related to the baby being born healthy due to the umbilical cord issue. Pray that he will be. I try not to dwell on that!
Thanks everyone. I look forward to getting all the help I can get!
Have a great Wednesday!