This morning in the book I'm reading during my time with God there was this quote.
" We only trust people we know. If you are struggling to trust God, it may be because you don't really know God." - Martha Tennison
At a very basic level I think my fear of death comes from lack of trust in God. What Beth Moore would call "Unbelief".
I looked up trust in Webster's Dictionary. One of the definitions is: assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something.
Ouch Again. This struggle with fear of dying is an everyday struggle for me. It breaks my heart to think that it is because I don't know God.
So, I guess the question I have to ponder today as I pack up more boxes around this house is this:
Do I know God?
One way we know God is through his Word. Here are a few scriptures the book I'm reading reminded me that God is this day.
Psalm 27: 1 "The Lord is my light and my salvation...."
Psalm 34:18 "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit."
Psalm 100: 5 "The Lord is good and his love endures forever, his faithfulness continues to all generations."
Psalm 145: 8 "The Lord is gracious and compassionate, Slow to anger and rich in love."
I sometimes feel like I am the only person struggling with this and I don't talk to people around me a whole lot about this fear because I always feel like they are looking at me like I have three heads or something. Anyone else out there struggle with this?
Also -- what other things can you add to my list of who God is? Maybe compiling a list and thinking on them throughout the day will help remind me who I know God to be. Maybe they will help me know him more so that I will no longer struggle with this fear and unbelief.
Thanks everyone. Have a great Tuesday.