Saturday, June 30, 2007

A Rockin' Reflection? I'm speechless!!!!

I have had one of the busiest days ever!!! It has also been a very emotional day for a lot of reasons but the biggest was that we attended a graveside service for a baby today. That is the saddest thing ever -- ya'll please pray for this precious family as they try to get back to living in the weeks to come. This baby was stillborn and they (as well as all who know them) are heartbroken. Pray special prayers that Our Lord will give them his presence and that they will feel so comforted by HIM in the weeks to come.
We are also headed out of town tomorrow (after church) to go and visit my family in North Georgia. So, I've been packing like a mad woman and unfortunately am now feeling guilty because I (ahem) took my frustrations out on my sweet family today and they didn't deserve that NOT at all!

SO, can I just say that it was the BEST THING EVER when I finally had a moment to sit down and found these sweet awards awaiting me. Ya'll, I am totally undeserving of these awards so, I'm speechless that anybody chose me much less 3 different people.

The first award was this one:

Cyndi, at
One Day More, bestowed this honor on me. I am humbled that I am in any way a reflection of God to this sweet lady. I found her blog early on when I started blogging and she is such an inspiration! If you don't know she has just recently come back from China on a mission trip. That is walking the talk in my book, girls. And it reminds me what I need to do myself.

Denise, at
Shortybear's Place, also honored me with this sweet award. She is doing Lisa's study along with some of you all out there. SHE has been such as source of encouragement through each and EVERY lesson! She always leaves me such sweet comments!
Plus, she lives very very near where I grew up =)!!! And that just warms my heart!

The second award was this one:

Cyndee, at Riezzee's Place, gave me this great honor. This sweet lady is also doing Lisa's I AM study. And I love reading her answers too! She is a special blessing to me because I had no idea that she read my blog. You may be asking how I can like reading her answers to bible study questions and NOT know that she reads my blog. Well, let me just tell ya. I'm a little slow on the uptake. See, even though I have seen comments from Cyndee from time to time - I never put two and two together to get that she went with Riezzee's place.....I know - I know! You can stop laughing now. Thank you so much, sweet Cyndee. I won't miss that you are Riezzee's place again!

I think I am supposed to pass both of these awards along now. There are many, many of you out there who deserve BOTH of these awards but here are a few. SO, know that if you are on my list you are most definitely a Rocking Reflection of God above to me!!!!

Tracey, at Show Me State of Mind, is a rocking reflection to me! She is always encouraging and gives me great advice whenever I'm feeling down. She is a sweet Southern Georgia peach which puts her at the top of my list and I am so blessed to have found her blog and to be able to call her my friend! I also always LOVE seeing the pictures she shares of her son and she and her hubby! SO sweet!

Lisa, at The Preacher's Wife, is family and friend. And if anyone deserves a rocking reflection award, it's her! She is working so hard giving us her online bible study - I AM, so you don't have to be. Lisa, thank you for taking all the time typing up lessons for us. YOU surely deserve this award!

Kim, at Lifesong, is SUCH an inspiration to me. She challenges me in ways that she will never know. Her posts keep me learning new things and seeking to love God and my family the way she does! Because her love for both are apparent on her blog. She also vacationed near my home this past week. We had hoped to get to meet for some coffee. Unfortunately it didn't work out.....maybe some other time!

Deborah, at Deborah's Encouragement, is a true witness! She loves the Lord and you can tell it! Her site is appropriately titled - she is the ultimate encourager! She has friends that she calls Dolla Friends and let me tell you - she makes you feel that you are one of those Dolla friends with every comment she leaves!

And lastly, I have to give this honor back to Cyndi, at One Day More. I share a passion for missions that she has. She was so sweet to think of me on her trip to China. She sent me a sweet bear to remind me to keep on praying, a bookmark that is now in my bible and a beautiful kleenex box cover. The box cover and the bookmark are both being used now and the bear sits on my kitchen counter to remind me to pray....thank you, Cyndi. He also reminds me of you and how much God has blessed me through you!

I cannot tell you how what am amazing gift each of you is to me. The Lord has truly blessed me with each and every one of you who meet me here and talk to me through the great big bloggy world out there. Thanks to each of you from the very bottom of my heart! I am blessed to call you my friends!

If you've not already done so -- play along and pass these awards on to those who are a rockin' reflection for you!

I am not sure how much I will be able to get online next week -- it'll be a busy one. I gotta go finish packing now and go to bed.....
You girls have a blessed week and I will catch up when I can!

Thursday, June 28, 2007

Thankful Thursday

It's time to count my blessings again. There is always a lot to be thankful for!!!
**I am thankful for the past few days without my children to spend with hubby. We've had a great few days together.
**I am thankful for the friends who asked to have our girls come stay with them for a few days which allowed the quality time for hubby and I.
**I am thankful that I am going on down to pick the girls up today. Because as much as I am always saying I need a break -- I am ready to see their sweet faces.
**I am thankful to my Lord above for creating a desire in me to know him more.....the more I know HIM - the more I want to know HIM and it is just a wonderful thing!
You girls have a great Thursday ! Go on over to see Iris at Sting My Heart and add your list of thanks!

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

I AM - Chapter 3 - Lesson 9

Today we began a new chapter of the I AM- so you don't have to be study. And, girls, go on over to The Preacher's Wife right now and link up! It is a good one -- YOU will be blessed!

SO, without further ado. Here are my answers to the questions.

1. On a scale of 1 to 10, rate yourself on how often your conversation is seasoned with the works of the Lord on your behalf? If you speak very little of Him, is there a reason you know of? If you speak often, how do people respond? UMMM, I'd have to say that for I talk about God a lot - so in that area I'd say it is about a 7 (there's always room for improvement). NOW - how much of that conversation is about the works of the Lord on my behalf? That one is not as good .......maybe a 3. That is humbling. I think the problem is in realizing the works of the Lord in my life.....I AM getting better at this though......ask me again in a few months hopefully I will be able to say a 5 - and growing!

2. Have you experienced a Set Up for a Show Up when you were uncertain whether the situation was the chastisement of the Lord or a temptation of Satan? Sure I have.....I think it is necessary to do some thinking and praying to figure it out. The situation I am in now? I believe it to be Satan trying to keep a Spirit of Fear in me but I also believe God is using it to teach me (chastise me for my lack of?) trust, hope, focus only on HIM. SO maybe it can be both?

3. Have you ever or are you now experiencing any Job trials where you can still not identify any wrong-doing on your part?I don't know about this one......I think that as a sinner there may not be anything that I've done blatantly wrong but maybe there is something I need to learn that I wasn't doing before......this is going to take more pondering.

4. Apply this principle: How can my response make my God famous? Will obedience result in my sanctification and God's Glory? My response can either make God famous or make the world more famous.....I can choose to out loud - in front of other's trust my God so people can see it so that when HE answers (and he will answer) they can see that I trusted God and HE answered me then HE is famous! My obedience will most definitely lead to me own sanctification - what better than to fully be trusting, loving and focusing on HIM? and that will give HIM glory!

5. Does the origin of our affliction matter in view of the fame God can gain from it? I don't know about this one........looking forward to other's answers!

Thanks so much Lisa for hosting and leading us in the great study!

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Honoring My Man Update

Well ladies. Let me tell you that the devil has been working hard on me this past week trying to get me to NOT honor my hubby. I am sad to say that on some days I let him lead me into arguing with hubby. Which let to both of us being irratible and no one wanting to kiss anyone good morning or even give a welcome home kiss in the afternoons.

I tell you I was very aware by the end of last week that the devil doesn't want me to honor my hubby as I should. He doesn't want things to change because he loses yet another foothold when it does.

However - I will not give up. I plan to continue my 1st set of goals and I will add two more..

**Since we are focusing on honoring him at work I want to add these goals:

****When he talks to me about church matters I will listen and support him instead of trying to point out where I think he can improve himself in the situation. ***

I am really bad about hearing him tell me something that bothered him at church and trying to tell him how to be different himself. I don't want to do that -- I know it just makes him feel bad.

**** Don't say anything about him to the people at church that isn't praising or complementary of him.

I don't mean that I bad mouth him to people -- I just mean if someone else is talking about their husbands and say, how they never help around the house, I might say something like "yeah, K doesn't help either...." That isn't honoring so I choose to bite my tongue . Mama always said, "If you can't say something nice......." you know the rest.

Looking forward to checking in with you all next week. I am planning to leave the devil behind ---far, far behind and NOT let him win -- not even once!!!!

Have a great week! If you are interested in joining the challenge, go on over to Fruit In Season!

Sunday, June 24, 2007

conversation with my girl....

My three little girls are going tomorrow morning to visit with some friends for a few days. I am glad that they get to go and have a good time with friends but I always get a little sad right before they go ( and when I am lonely at home after I drop them off). So, this morning the 3 of them were laying in my bed with me and this was the conversation. All 3 of them were there but only 1 of them was talking to me at this point.

Me: "I am going to miss you all so much this week. What am I going to do?"

M: (middle daughter who is 3): "You'll have Daddy."

Me: "Yes, but he works all day long. What will I do during the day without you girls? I will be all by myself."

M: "No you won't. You'll have God."

Right there. THAT is a sermon in itself isn't it? I WILL have God. And isn't that supposed to be the most important thing of all?!!? He is always with me. Always my comfort and my sustainer. Always my friend and my companion. HE IS my all in all!

Friday, June 22, 2007

I AM - Lesson 8

I am a little late doing this study this week but it is never too late, I say. If you are interested in joining go on over to Lisa's blog - The Preacher's Wife and link up!

1. Have you ever been in a situation where you had to 'go back' to a place of shame or ridicule? How did that make you feel? Although I cannot think of an example right now, I am SURE that I have had to go back to a place of shame and ridicule and it makes me feel small even thinking about it.

2. Is there any circumstance in your life that still has you running for cover? Share if you feel comfortable. As odd as it may seem to most I have been running from dying. I, in the past year, have had a very REAL bout with anxiety and panic attacks and that has led to a fear of dying. For a while I could totally see why someone would become agoraphobic because I could have holed up at home and not gone anywhere because the FEAR is paralyzing.

3. When is the last time you felt like an overcomer? I feel like I have come along way in this anxiety stuff and even though I have far to go - I am still an overcomer. I have written out a whole lot of scripture s on my truth cards on what my LORD has to say about fear and I am learning them so that I can fight with HIS words in the battlefield of my mind.

4. If you have not yet taken the serpent by the tail, are you willing to stop running, take hold and trust God to transform it into a tool for wonders? I have days that are really good when I have taken the serpent by the tail and then there are days when I am still running..... I desperately WANT to take hold - hang on - and trust God to transform this stuff for HIS good.

5. I would like for you to write down this statement based on 1 John 2:14 somewhere you will see it often this week: "I am strong, the Word of God abides in me, and I have overcome the evil one." Memorize it. Say it over and over until you believe it. Will you do this?? Most of the time, there are no right or wrong answers, but on this one, I'm expecting a 'yes'! yes.

That's about it for today girls. See ya soon!

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Thankful Thursday

I know we ALL love our kids, but today I have had a day. And it has been some kind of day.
The oldest is 5 going on 16 so she thinks she can tell everyone else what to do - which just leads to fights.
The middle one has not felt well and even has a fever so she is just PLAIN grumpy.
The smallest one is 2 1/2 -- need I say more?

So today here is my list:

**I am thankful for my girls. They are gifts -- no matter how much they drive me crazy on a day like today or how easily I can forget they are gifts on a day like to day --I need the reminder.

**I am thankful for my husband who is just so sweet that he will stay a whole evening with them so I can get out once a month to be with my VW girls.

**I am thankful that TONIGHT is my VW bible study group. We have such a blast together , studying God's word, talking, laughing and crying, and praying with and for one another.

**And lastly but most importantly -- I am thankful to my LORD who brought this group into my life and will allow me to come home smiling -- having had a wonderful evening out!

If you wanna join Thankful Thursday go on over to see Iris.
Sorry I've been absent this week -- been a crazy busy week but I promise to catch up with you all tomorrow!
Have a good thursday night! I am leaving now for my drive (45 min) to my meeting -- in which I will stop and have supper alone - in the quiet.....and have some peaceful time with my LORD praising him through song and worship!

Monday, June 18, 2007

Honoring the man I've been given

I am joining in Christine's 30 day challenge to honor my husband.
Because it is a good thing and I have always been slack about giving the respect he deserves.
Here are a few of my goals........these are the initial one that I've thought of and I am sure there will be more but I think these 3 are a good start!

**Begin each day by praying for him and us. I will use my Power of The Praying Wife book. I used to be really good at praying for him with this book each day but I've long since stopped doing it......I will start again!

**Actually greet him each afternoon when he comes home with a kiss and a hug. I've NEVER been good at this but I believe that it will set our evening off right if I greet him and he sees he is first on my list.

**When he is discussing things with me and I disagree with him, I will first go and discuss in in prayer with GOD...HE may change MY mind. HE may help me see that my thoughts are right and lead me to discuss it with hubby in HIS way or he may instruct me to be quiet. Whatever happens I've turned it over to GOD and that is best.

**lastly, bite my tongue when I feel like nagging.....instead take it to Jesus in prayer.

I am so happy that I am going to do this for the next 30 days. I am also scared about failing.......but I know you all are doing it too and that MY LORD is helping me and will honor my respecting hubby the way HE directs me too! AND I cannot wait to see how this blesses our marriage......and to see how your's are all blessed too! If you are interested in joining this fabulous challenge -- go on over to Fruit in Season and link up!

Pondering On...............hope

HI everybody. I hope ya'll had a great father's day with all the special father's in your lives! We had a great weekend!
Ya'll know that God has been leading me to trust him more in the past months and I have pretty much learned that trusting God (or anyone for that matter) is a choice. I choose each day - each moment to trust him.
And I have been praying and making that choice repeatedly over the past months. Well - I've been asking God what else is it? What else is in the way? Why is this trusting so hard for me?
Today HE gave me an answer.
It's hope.
I have a lack of hope. I have to tell you how God revealed this to me today.
I have a group of girls I meet with once a month and we are working our way through Patsy Clairmont's devotional called All Cracked Up. Well today I read a devotional on hope and trust and I thought maybe hope is it - maybe hope is what I lack. Patsy explains that hope is our life preserver in the storms of I got to thinking. Maybe trust and hope go hand in hand and maybe hope is what I am lacking.
I then moved on to my bible study - The Patriarchs by Beth Moore thinking that my lesson for today on Jacob and Esau would have nothing to do with one another and I would need to come back and ponder on the hope thing later on.
WELL - GOD - he knew. He knew that today was the day HE would reveal to me that hope is what I need more of and both of these lessons would oddly go along that same theme.
I was going along reading this day's work and thinking what a clod Esau really was and how manipulative Jacob was being-- when Beth had me look up Ephesians 1:18 "I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you."
HOPE. There it was again. NOW I KNOW God is telling me something. And part of it is this:
HE -- MY GOD - wants me to hope in HIM!
I have a lot more scripture perusing to do and studying to do on HOPE now since I clearly see this is what God is calling me to work on personally right now. And I believe HE will use you to speak to me too.
SO - here are some questions that I would love your feedback on --

1. DO hope and trust go together in your opinion? HOW so or why not?
2.What is this hope that God is calling me to have? How do you define hope?

I will be looking forward to hearing your thoughts on this.....If I knew how I'd create a mr. linky thing but since probably not many folks will have an opinion -- it is probably better to save myself the humiliation of having no names on it! I would honestly LOVE your feed back on this ! TIA!

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Thankful Thursday

I have so much to be thankful for today. Here are a few:

**I am thankful for my healthy family.

**I am thankful that even if I mess up my God still loves me and forgives me.

**I am thankful that our bible school kickoff went well last night.

**I am thankful that God is IN CONTROL even when I can't seem to remember that.

**I am thankful that my hubby is such a great dad to our girls.

**I am thankful for the home that is provided for me to live in.

**I am humbled and thankful for the ones who visit with me here and read my blog. I recently was told of a couple of men out there who read it. I am honestly humbled by the thought....As I am that anyone chooses to read anything I have to say.

If you want to be a part of thankful thursday, go on over to Sting My Heart!

Thanks for reading -- It is always good to count my blessings!

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Are you up to the challenge?

Christine over at Fruit In Season is hosting a challenge starting June 18th. And here is what it is:

A 30 day Honor Your Husband Challenge!!!
Sounds like a great idea to me! What about you? Are you up to joining this? I am sure it will be a blessing to both you and your marriage. Go on over and find out more!

Tuesday's In Other Words

"Faith never knows where it is being led, but it loves and knows the One who is leading."
~ Oswald Chambers ~

Wow. What a quote. It has taken me years to become one who can handle a quote like this. Years to really comprehend it's reality. Years to fully believe that GOD is in control and understand that HE is truly leading my life.

It is easy to SAY it. "God is in control and he is leading my life". It is much harder, In my opinion, to FULLY believe it.

When I was younger I didn't understand this and thought (for various reasons) that God couldn't possibly be really involved in my life. Even though I grew up in church and was there almost every Sunday, and I heard it said that God was in control - it was hard to believe. OH, I heard it over and over and I knew all the bible stories that should have made it a reality for me. In fact, when I was in our youth group and we would have Bible Trivia tournaments, I was the girl everyone wanted on their team because I knew all the answers........(I need to mention that we played with the kids cards not the adult ones......most of those are still too hard!) I could tell you all the answers but it was hard for me to really have FAITH as in this quote.

Now, almost 20 years later, I still have struggles with faith. But I have come a long way. I can look back at my life and see God's workings in my life and see where HE has been in charge even when I was stupid enough to be playing god of my own life.

I've said in previous posts that as a child I was sexually abused by a care giver. Having innocence lost at such an early age - and feeling like it was really my own fault that this happened to me, led me to some destructive behavior in my early 20's. I was very promiscuous - I'm very ashamed to say. And never once did I have a scare of pregnancy in my stupidity. I don't say this to brag -- I say this to drive home my point that GOD was FULLY in charge of my life. See, once I got married and hubby and started trying to have children, it literally happened the 1st month we didn't use birth control. The second time was exactly the same and the third time? We were still using birth control. SO - looking back now, I can fully see how God was in control. Pregnancy for me came easy and when I think of my foolishness in those years, I should have had the consequences of an "unwanted" pregnancy to deal with. BUT PRAISE be to the father, he spared me this consequence.

I have learned so much to really trust God in this past year and fully see him as IN CHARGE of life -- all life. And as far as the "not knowing where it is being led" part -- I am living it right now. We've been led to a new place and there is much to be done in this place. I am learning to stop worrying about the WHERE and just to fully trust and allow the ONE I love to lead the way. Hubby and I were just talking about this a couple of nights ago. We really want to be God's hands in our situation and to do that we have to be fully IN TUNE with him.

This is an awesome quote and one that I am still learning to make a reality in my life. I am thankful for where HE has led me thus for and for the understanding he has given me. And as hard as it may be, I fully in tend to stop worrying and the where and remember that I know and LOVE the one who is leading. And to remember that HE is sovereign and loves me too and HIS leading can NEVER be wrong!

If you want to read more thoughts on this or want to leave your own go on over to Sting My Heart!

Monday, June 11, 2007

We're back!

Hi all! We have arrived home from Annual Conference. My girls and I spent most of our time playing at the house we rented or we played at the playground while hubby was in his meetings voting on the important things like how much furniture should church have for pastor's in their parsonages.....

That was one of the lighter issue's they voted on. There were many more that were quite political I'd say. This is a serious meeting I have come to understand. This year in particular was a big one as the delegates and pastor's there voted on who should represent our conference at the general conference. And General Conference which convenes every 4 years, is where the decisions on where the Methodist church stands on different issues are made.

We did have some fun while away though. Lake Junaluska is a beautiful place and usually we get to see lots of friends. Although this year in particular every one seemed too busy to visit. I guess that should be expected since most of people there are pastors and they HAVE to be at the meetings.....That was sort of sad that we didn't get to spend time with some of our friends but such is life I suppose!

We did have 1 day to do some family stuff. We took our girls to a place called Santaland.....I have to tell you that I was incredibly leery of this place to start with. It is an "amusement park" and from the outside, I felt it looked a bit scary. BUT - my girls loved it! They got to see Santa and sit in his lap for pictures in JUNE. And the thing I loved best about Santa? He told my girls to remember that we celebrate Jesus' birthday on Christmas! (go santa!) There was a petting zoo and some carnival rides, too. It was a great time for my girls. If you are ever near Cherokee, NC and have small children - Santaland is worth the visit.
I've missed catching up with you all this past week and will try to do that today sometime in between the laundry and house cleaning I've got to get done!
Have a great day everybody!
God continues to be so GOOD!

Monday, June 4, 2007

See ya soon!

My family and I are headed to Lake Junaluska tomorrow afternoon for hubby's annual conference. For those of you who aren't Methodist, it's basically a yearly meeting of all the pastors in our conference - which includes all of Western NC. Lake Junaluska is near Maggie Valley - home of Ghost Town. And if that doesn't orient you then how about this? It is also near Cherokee -- you know -- Harrah's of Cherokee. Never been in -- did drive by.....It is a HUGE establishment in a small, small place!
It means lots of meetings for him, lots of time with the girls for me It is pretty and we enjoy watching the ducks on the lake, and who knows we may even venture over to the pool.
We do get to sees lots of friends that we see usually JUST at this event. SO, that should be fun!
Hope all you girls have a fabulous week!
I will talk to you all next week. I am hoping for some one on one walks around the lake and meetings with my LORD so let's hope I have much to offer when I return!
GOD Bless!

Southern Belle and proud of it

I found this quiz over at Musings of an Ordinary Girl and thought it would be fun to see if the quiz was right (that r. long i. ght) or wrong. What can I say? I am inside, outside, upside, downside -- Southern through and through and this Georgia peach (transplanted Carolina Girl) is pretty proud of it =).

What American accent do you have?
Your Result: The South

That's a Southern accent you've got there. You may love it, you may hate it, you may swear you don't have it, but whatever the case, we can hear it.

The Northeast
The Inland North
The Midland
The West
North Central
What American accent do you have?
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